Wednesday, October 22, 2008

November 6, 1958---October 23, 2005

Dear Dave,

I'm sitting here at my computer trying to find words to tell you how much I miss you. No words can accurately describe how this feels writing to you, knowing you'll never answer me were my big brother, my protector, my confidant, my hero.

I remember when you went into the navy and how mom, dad, Rick and I cried as the bus drove off with you in it...and how young you looked. How you looked so brave, I missed you then. You came back, older, stronger and more confident. Not that you weren't already. Heck, you were the high school heart throb, all the girls loved you! I was in your shadow in high time some guy came up to me out of the blue and said--Hey, why can't you be like your brother Dave? and I just replied...I don't know? I wasn't jealous-I was so proud of you, you had the cool factor going on.

When you came home on leave from the Navy, you were so great, I was so happy that you were home even for a little while...I just want to thank you for spending time with me...taking your kid sister to lunch, buying me things (you didn't have to do that you know) Listening to Fleetwood Mac on your 8 track! Drinking beer with Pickard!

I wanted to tell you that I bragged about you all the time..."My brothers in the Navy on a nuclear submarine, he's a nuclear electrician!" I think people got tired of hearing about how great you were!

A lot has happened since you've been gone...but, I don't want to go that route right now. I just want to say; thanks for being there for me...we had a great life know, you don't hear about that many siblings loving each other as much as you, Rick and I did! Maybe partly because we were so close in age, Mom practically had triplets we were so close.

Just know that I miss you so much my heartaches, I'll never ever, ever stop missing you...I know that if you could you'd tell me to stop already! So, I will.

I love you Dave. Miss you.

Here's to you, one of the songs we used to listen to, in your green chevy malibu.

Fleetwood Mac-Never Going Back Again


Rhonda said...

Oh, what a sweet, heart felt note to your brother! I'm so sorry for your loss!

Lex the mom said...

A very touching tribute to your brother. I can't imagine the loss of a sibling. Losing a loved one is so very difficult.

Take care & I will be in touch tomorrow!

Candid Carrie said...

Carey, I have nothing to say other than I am sorry for your loss and grateful that you had a brother to brag about.

Hug your mom for me, I am sure she needs it. Tell her it is from someone who knows.

In January, Madeleine will be gone thirteen years. I am comforted in knowing Rick is probably hanging with my girl know and doing the big brother thing with some one else for the time being.

Just look at all the different ways God found to through the two of us together. Cool, huh?

RBK's Realm said...

What an amazing tribute! Having lost two brothers within seven months in the prime of their life last year, your emotions hit home very hard.

God bless them all!

Ronda's Rants said...

I am sorry for the loss of your Dad was an electrician on a Sub in the Navy early in his military career. You wrote a beautiful letter and I think we all should take this letter to heart and call those we love while we can!
Thanks, Ronda

Blessings From Above said...

This is an amazing tribute to your brother. I am so sorry for your loss.

Thinking of you...


Teri said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. This is such a beautiful tribute to your brother. I appreciate you sharing with everyone.

Take care.

The Rule Maker said...

Virtual hug to you!

Glenda, saved by grace said...

I cant imagine your pain, however I can imagine your love. I love my brother that way!
Hugs and blessings to you!