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obsession

1. Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.
2. A compulsive, often unreasonable idea or emotion.

Habit may refer to:

• Habit (psychology), an acquired pattern of behavior that often occurs automatically
• Habituation, non-associative learning in which there is a progressive diminution of behavioral response probability with repetition of a stimulus
• An act done repeatedly, sometimes unconsciously (such as a tic), sometimes for leisure (such as a hobby)

Today I'm putting something out there that y'all might help me with.

I tend to eat or listen to, or just do things until I can't stand it any longer. Does that make sense?

For instance: my daughters made me a playlist for my iPod ( nice I know) I love all the music they put on this one certain playlist.

The problem, I only now listen to that certain playlist. Why? Because I love it sooooo much.
and I don't want to listen to anything else. I will listen to this, until finally I start to detest it! Thats right, I will start hating the music. I just can't help it.

The same with food, I'll start to love a certain food (chili) and I have to, or want it everyday--until bam, yes, that's right I hate it!

Why can't I just go along, like everyone else, in moderation and like, and eat, a variety of different things?

Maybe it's habit--my life is a habit and series of rituals.

Started a long time ago: get up in the morning and feed the horses, run back in the house take a shower and go to school...everyone has a morning ritual, not a problem--the problem is when you start hating the habit, ritual or obsession (don't really like the word) anyway, I think you're starting to see where I'm going with this.

Am I normal? Do you do this too?

Comment please! anonymously, I don't care just tell me.

I'm really not that upset about this habit of mine, just curious that's all!

p.s. don't really think I need therapy, would only love it and then hate it!!!

Update on Rickie

I decided to update on my blog...a lot easier than e-mailing everyone:) I'm waiting for a call from the hospital to let me know when a bed becomes available. The doctors were not pleased at all with Rickie's PFT yesterday. The middle airways are only functioning at 30% (not good). He will have a port put in Monday so that they can access his IV meds and draw blood as well. That's a good thing, Rickie hates to be poked! I think they will leave it in for years as long as it's taken care of properly by moi. He will be getting intense therapy, meaning a lot during the day a long with his medications. Schooling is scheduled as well-he doesn't get out of that one! On a more serious note, please say a prayer, or send positive thoughts for Rickie. Our family is very concerned with this recent knowledge of his middle airways. I will try to update daily.

Love,

Carey